Br0keN HeArTd L0SeR

broknhrtdloser6 @ 2005-12-06T15:55:00

2005-12-06T20:56:18Z

wwell i jsut wrote an entire entry and it erased t so eff that lol... <3

back again

2005-12-01T22:39:44Z

so yea i should stick with this ... basicalyl school is ok ... dance is awsome... i started my solo i love it ... i also finally got pointe ... i love my shoes soo pretty lol... umm what else ... idk nothg exciting lately...tommrow skipping skool and the family is going to garden state plaza mall for the day christmas shopping!!!!! cant wait i lvoe it their... might sound stupid but i also love shopping with everyone haha...im supposed to be at dance assistan teaching right now but i didnt feel like it and so im just going for my class cause im bad like that... mommy almost hit a deer last night and my seat belt didnt lock right away when she slammed on her breaks so i like pulled the entire right side of my body ...OOO YEAAA I GOT MY LICENSE haha... not like i go anywhere that great but summer is gunnu be soo sick with it haha... soo yea basically nothign new but ill update more often <333

hmm write much

2005-10-04T14:53:31Z

well since i didnt keep up wit this most of the summer i guess ill try and start again... summer was awsome... my cousins left i mis them alot but email them all the time ... umm what else lets see i got my solo i start it on saturday cant wait....last saturday i danced in the englishtown street fair... well at first we were on grass and of course i was the one who twisted her ankel... so i danced anyway cause im an idiot and went to the hospital on sunday .. its twisted and i ave soft tissue damage in my my foot and ankel.. AWSOMEE... im on crutches and i have an air cast... NOT FUN... so im going to an orthopedic dr. to see if i need an mri i hate that its the scariest thing in the world last time i cried... and im deffffff... dancing by thursday no matter what i dont care... school is good so far i have good grades lol .. and im actually getting involved in stuff this yea r.. im in jsa (junior senetors of america) and sga (studanet government) so yea... add that to dance everyday its awsome.. it doesnt bother me tho m not used to just coming home from school and doing nothing at night .. id die lol... well im gunnu go lay down and ice my ankel... idk wut im doing tommrow since we dont have school again YAYY... ill keep up with tis thing now lol <333

recap of summer so far

2005-08-23T04:12:14Z

well summer has been awsome ... been working at pac sun ... dancing and wut not... umm dance... yea i didnt get pointe i made pre pointe and will be on pointe hopefully by november .... im starting my solo in october...umm wut else .. me and sloan have been attatched at the hip which is good cause we only have a half of brain together lol...she finally came back from vaca shes been gone for 10 friggin days lol... so i jsut finished putting all my clothes the i actualyy wear in these plastic drawr things cause my cousin will be sleeping in my room for the next 3 weeks and i dotn want to have to go in there every morning or night like when shes in their...so yhea... umm wut else.. oo yeah i dotn work again till like the end of september causr i didnt wnt to work while my cousins were here... nothing elxse really just been a good summer all in all ... dont want it to end lol... ill keep up wit this now i thinkj lol... if not now once school starts .. i like this whole not having a routine thing but i like having a routine and knowing wut im doing everyday lol... ight im on the fone now so im gunnu go .. sloans coming over at 4 in the morningnthen me and momy are going to the airaport to pick up my cousin... louise comes this week and then her parents come next week no clue y at diff. times but watevs lol<3333

hellooo

2005-07-18T20:52:07Z

wel this week was good... anthonys party sucked asshole lol... but friday night slept over sloans court slept over too ... we tok pictures in the pool with a water proff camera dirty ass pictures lol....watched degrassi... amazing of course lol... and then watched the seed of chucky good movie ....funny as shit lol... who thinks to make a movie with a confussed doll lol... well then i thru up for a while ...dint feel good.. so thne we went upstairs and i passed out... saturday mommy picke us up we went to the mall to pick up my check and thne we went to the bank and opened up an account for me ... then we went to ants and he wasnt there yet.... ants mom thought me and sloan were lesbians cause we were laying on eachother the hole time lol... we were cold and bored it happens....then finallyy me and sloan couldnt take anymore and we left... went to wegmans with mommy and mema...got ice cream went home ate dinner watched a walk to remember but we both fell asleep and sloan woke up cause she was cold and it was time for her to leave lol... thne sunday i wetn to target with mommy and mema... we got shelves lol... then i went home got my stuff together and went over to sloans... showerd and got dressed for abyss.... it was awsoem.... had a lot of fun.... danced with some cute guys ... danced on one of the platforms for a while ....i didnt like the hip hop room tho ... not my styl;e lol... so next time we are taking dustin with us and hopefully other people idk yet lol.. well i ave dance tonite ... got my schedule fro next year ....im gunnu be one busy girl.... 17 and a half hours a week... wtf ... yea well im gunnu go pz<3

helloo there

2005-07-13T04:48:23Z

well i havent written but i feel a lot better i can swallow again... but im still fucking tired as nething... this weekedn worked and hung out wit sloan... then last night we decided that she wanted to sleep over so she called out sick from work and e went to hurricane harbor ...we had fun went on slides and shit ... and there was a life guard named ferit lolyea it was fun tho.... tommrow me mommy angela and lexi are going to hurricane harbor then im leaving at 4 and going to work lol .. lucky me haha... works not bad its jsut that i dont like not being home ... or with people im close wit .. its not me im such a baby lol... but yea .... saturday should be fun... anthonys party .. me and sloan are going lol... shes like the only person i hang out wit latley its pathetic really ...but yea .. im gunnu go to sleep caue i have to wake up by like 9 tommrow so yea <33

still feel like i got run over bt a truck

2005-07-06T03:57:51Z

so yea sunday i started to feel better so me and sloan went wit mommy and mema to see the fireworks...we get there and its packed so were ridding thru the parking lot and something smacks into my door NONE clue wut it was i screamed mommy yells omg i think i hit somethign but theres nothign in front of the car and then we realize it was mich running into the car fuckign idiot lol.. so we chilled with her .. me and sloan wore caution tape on our heads as head bands it was awsome... thne we went to visit dustin he made me try wasabi ginger ice cream GROSSSSSSIisnt even the word i was madd at him real mad.. so then sloan went home and i collapse din bed... monday me sloan and the fam went to brooklyn to grandmas hosue i didnt feel good but i really wanted to go so i sucked it up lol.. so wewent for a walk on 86st. and went shopping ...walked around the block to see the guys playing"stick ball on the stooopp" lol...and then i was real;l;y tired and felt like crap so i took a nap .. then woke up we ate we played music we walked .. we had fun lol... once it got dark it was awsmome there were fire works all ove r.. we watched the guys across the street lol... they poured gassoline all over everythign before they lit it lol... then we left around 11 and i fell asleep in the car leaning on sloan wit my feet on mema lol.. but they had to wake me up when we got to sloans cause i was sleeping on her lol... got in the hosue couldnt walk up the stairs .. so i crawled ... i wasnt even fully inbed and i was asleep it was great lol... and today i slept all day and im still tired .. mono is kicking my ass... going to sleep casue my hands are even tired o god lol this sux...<3

i feel like i got run over by a truck

2005-07-03T02:36:43Z

i have mono it sux.... so last night at like 11 i was so cold i was shaking but i had a really bad fever so i slept in mommys bed .. then i woke up and couldnt breathe cause my throat was so swollen... so i was crying and mommy woke up so at 2 in the mornign we drank tea lol.. then i finally fell asleep and went to the doctor this morning ... she went to check my breathign and was like holly crap ur on fire i was like ... then she looked at my throat which is swollen times 10 and has puss all over it lol sexy i kno...so she was like im gunnu test fro strep but i think its mono so the test came back negative .. and then she looked at my neck and was like hmmm .. usually ur glands shouldnt be popping out of ur neck ... im glad her and my mommy found this funny .. i was so cold i had on logn sleeves a sweat shirt and sweatpants and it was not cold out this morning at all... so she put me on medicen for mono .... and she was liek the pill is smaller then a tylenol casue i cant swallow my own spit let alone a pill..so we wound up getting the generic casue the regular medicen cost like 150 dollars so the generic is like the size of my head ... it hurts so bad to swallow it i cant even explain.....so today i sat on the coach under three blankets and watched the thing on mtv live 8.... it was on from 12-8 ... i ahd nothig else to do ... pissed casue i was supposed to go to abyss tommrow.... and i was reading this book thing the doctor gave me with the symptoms and shti liek that .. and im contagious for 6months how much does that suck ... ummm ALOT.... well im gunnnu go to sleep casue i have nothing betterto do

ive come to realize im useless

2005-06-30T20:34:12Z

so yea ... last night me mich and dustin talked on the fone till 7 in the a.m lol.... it was fun .. we sang we shared we talked a lot ... adn ive realized im useless... really tho i am..... im sitting here waiting till at least 5 to start getting ready for abyss casue im so anxious lol.... i can wait lol... me and sloan are gunnu have fun haha... idk im bored lol.... ight well im gunnu go to somethign to occupy myself lol....

i miss when things made sense

its raining its pooring the old man is snoring

2005-06-29T20:39:38Z

so court came over yesterday ... we played the lion king game while watching lion kig casue we are kool lol...then we started playign monopoly that was at like 3 in the afternoon....the game didnt end until 1 in the morning lol...so yea she slept over... then in the morning we woke up at like 12 lol.. and i was like o shit ur mom was picking u up at 11:39 .. i was half asleep but it was funny ... so lu called and came over .. we chilled for a while watched hitch then nightmare before christmas but i changed it cuase i didnt like it and then we watched aladdin.. then lu left then court left and now im sitting here... getting a totally diff. story thnen i heard the other night about michs. sweet 16 .. which i didnt go to cause i have an eye infection ... it sux lol... but w.e i have to get ready for work .... abyss tommrow YAYYAA soo xcited lol... me and sloan need guys it needs to happen lol... ight <3

updating after a while

2005-06-28T14:38:06Z

so its summer..... schools finally over .. recital was good .... summers been good so far .... chilled with sloan a lot ... oo yea got a job im working at pac sun now... its money cant complain... umm and the biggest news tbn is back lol.... i was reading thru some old journal entrys about our inside jokes and shit and sent them to mich and bri and we started talking abd we are going to have a camp out ... in my backyard lol... im happy lol...hopefully things will go back to normal.... whne things fucking made sense and we were bestfriends and me and mich made fun of aqua boy lol.... i miss that so much ... so thursdya im on call gfrom 2-6 thne im going to abyss wit sloannniie... exciting i kno lol.... hmm wut else oo yea i got to watch the stars the other nite lol... wit my bff we stayed out there so long just talkign it was good i needed that ... but then somehtign was crawling under the trampoline and we ran lol... so yea ... summer is gunnu be good.... i hope lol...well im gunnu go back to sleep casue its still early enuff to lol...

the pieces are coming back together

happy feet rox my socks

2005-05-23T21:00:10Z

ahevnt written in a while sry so yea comp this weekend was awsome we kicked ass haah ... i must say i was kind of disapointed becuase i wetn there excpecting a lot because we recieved a lot last time but then angela said and she was right they couldnt give us a lot of special awards for butterfly kisses again because we got them all already lol...so we recieved for

butterfly kisses high gold, 1st place and tear jerker i dropped my extension adn cried after cause i suck

music of MY heart lol gold and 1st place i got up to early in the begginging but played it off and just whispered o shit to ange and maria casue i was backwards lol

dream girls gold and first place that one was awsome

latin mix gold and 1st place i was happy with that one too

come on we got sterling silver which is right undergold but still we came off stage sooo excited casue we thought we did so wella nd then we got then and it just brought us down u kno

jump wit my baby got HIGH GOLD yayyy and 1st place so hapy for kathy on that one she was so nervous and sick

marias solo got gold and 1st place and so did logan and gina and they also go t dynamic duo .... all in all good compettition

on another ntoe other then dance for once lol i think i like someone again just cause i saw him all over today and he would looka t me and smile and i just looked away casue i was still kinda pissed at him for everything but then at the end of the day i knew he was watching me but i didnt care casue i was really hyper and having fun wit toni and everyone and he was like staring at me and smiling and laughing and idk it just felt weird like i like him but hes made it clear he just wants ass from me and thats not what i want so w.e .... i really need a b.f by the way lol... so excited for this weekend idk wut im doign on friday yet... sloan was gunnu hook me up wit this kid but we found out he has a g.f so tht sucks .. saturday courts sweet 16 .. i got my dress its really pretty i love it ... sunday abyss wit sloan idk about that yet tho casue mommy told me i could go but we need more people then jsut us or were not aloud to go idk who else is going wit us yet tho ... and i need to hang out wit spanky really bad lol... umm o yea me and lyss were very excited about the biggest fan coming out lol... k this is really long bye lol

no more feeling so useless

2005-05-17T19:52:09Z

friday .... went to dance then hung out wit sloan at like 9 we went to target and got a disposable camera to be stupid wit lol then we walked over to applebees and saw people lol... then the 2 idiots walked to wegmans and spent 30 dollars on magazines and candy casue we are that cool lol.. then we finally went home around 11:30 and watched tv and shit ..

saturday went home hung out around the hosue for a little then drove back to sloans hosue cause i forgot my cell there like a dumbass ... went to dance which wasnt that bad ... didnt do that much ctually lol... went over scores from the last 2 competitions ....umm then went home got dressed and went to the company party which was a lot fo fun took a lot of pictures :happy: but then twoardas the end of the night mommy let me habve some wine and i got sick and trew up on myself lol.... i had dance clothes in the car so i jsut changed and i was ok lol... i was outsied for a while watching the boys do improve funniest thing ever lol .... marias bro frankie (frankie s) anges bro frankie (frankie l) amandas bro tj (tj big) and taylors bro tj (tj small) tj big was having a baby frankieL was his husband tjsmall was a cop delivering the baby and frankieS was an arab cab driver tjsmall was pretending to kick the baby back in i was PISSing myslef it was sooo funny.... so left there around 10:30 went home and went to bed casue i didnt feel good and i was tired lol... sunday drove to church then went to sams then me mommy and mema and grandma went to barnes and noble and starbucks stupid i kno but it was fun, lol.... monday skool was ok kinda boring dacne was ok we got yelled at tho ... today more dance wut else is new lol... umm tommrow guess wut i have dance lol ... so excited for comp on sunday ... i hope we do well <33333 k im gunnu go get dressed for dance ... suck it eazy <3

TGIF

2005-05-13T19:43:50Z

so went back to skool wednesday watev ... dance blah blah school blah blah dance last night umm lindsey wasnt there cause she had a fuckign migraine and we dont have an ending to our dance she aught it last week and was like practice it and well go over ti all next week well SHE WASNT HERE ....so now on tuesday i have practice for it ... and wednesday were having class for 2 hosur ... today skool was ok wnet by rather fast .. pep rally was good i guess... there kin da boring tho cause like u cant see wuts goiong on when they are outside i like thme better in the gym BUT ANYWAY .. im am going to dance soon till 8 .... dress rehersal for polar express ... then mema is driving me and sloan to target where we are getting a disposable camera and then going to eat at aopplebees and be stupid wit the camera lol.. then im sleepign at sloan....t5ommrow i have dance and then the company party tommrwo night YAYYY ... ight im gunnu go get dressed and pack k <3

still dying

2005-05-11T02:26:01Z

stayed home sick again today .. felt worse this mornign then i did yesterday ... i couldnt lift my head this morning casue i was coughing all night and i had such a head ace and my neck and stomach hurt casue i pulled all the musceles... so i woke up at 12 and didnt get out of bed till 2 casue i didnt haev the strength to get up ....then i laye daround all day adn mommy came home at 3 and brought me home lunch which i didnt eat caue i cant taste anything ... then i had to go to dance cause there is only 2 weeks until competition ... YESSS... but so yea i sat out and just atched then i drove to get mema .. but half way thee i got mad real mad pulled over the car and told my mom i dint want to drive casue she was yelling at me the entire time ... then went to ccd wit mommy ... her kids are soo funny ... but yea now im home watched hosue now im on the fone wit mich and im soon going to sleep ... back to school tommrow i hope ... ight peace

3 stirkes ur out

2005-05-09T22:16:43Z

I GUESS I LEARNED MY FUCKING LESSON

viral infections suck dick

2005-05-09T19:36:59Z

so yea yesterday woke up and coukldnt breathe or talk so i slept all day and today woke up at 10:30 and my mom said i had a fever so she didnt even wake me up .. went to the doctor i have a viral infection in my upper body .. so i need to sleep and take medicen and drink like a gallon of water an hour lol... everything hurts .. my teeth my ears my chest my stomach my head and i cant stand light .. its times like these i wish i could go sleep in courts basment in the new room cause their are no windows and u cant tell if its day or nite in there...o man i want to go to courts and just sleep down there lol... well i cant miss dance tonite so im going and laying in frotn of the mirror if i can lift my head... prolly not going to sick ...and skool tommrow idk yet ... we shal see ... im going to sleep now goodbye

cant wait fro summer

2005-05-08T03:16:06Z

today was fun ... went to dance ... i drove home got changed i drove to the mall we shopped for mommy for mothers day and then i drove home was home all of about 5 minutes and sloan calls and asks if i want to go to 6 flags so im like hmm ok lol... so we hung out and talked about how summer is gunnu be amazing casue we dont like going on the water at the beach so were jsut gunnu tan and go to hurricane harbor and lay in the lazy river the whole day .. and go to the board walk and meet hot guys lol... we are also going to the aquarium to look at the sharks lol... we had fun tho ... then we came home and watched grind and then went to coldstone and drove sloan home now im on the fone wit her ... tommrow is mommys day and idk wut we are doing lol... monday i get to drive to skool :happy: so im a happy camper.... and yea ok im tired and i have a head ache and my throat hurts an dmy nose si all stuffy .. i think im getting sick .... going to sleep <3

where is ur boy tonite?

2005-05-07T04:28:30Z

yooo so since last time i got my permit .. decided im quitting dance or going and not talkign to anyone since i kno i wont quit i guess just goign and dancing would be better and ill maybe get noticed then? yea prolyl not but its worth a shot .... umm tonite went to dance from 4:30 - a little after 8:30 .. not so fun ... since i dont talk to anyone as much anymore cuas i got kicked out of our little group thing cause im not cool enuff idk wut happened there....but then got dressed there went and picked up sloan and went to the movies... the movie sucked assss .... ooo and on the wy there david kept calling so i was jsut picking up the fone and sayign random shit it was good lol.... tommreo dance at 12 casue i have no life and can go there all the time...grrr... anyway then im going to the mallwit sloan? apparently lol ... then maybe hanging out wit court tommrwo nite.....yea so im gunnu go pass ot now lol <3

broknhrtdloser6 @ 2005-05-02T18:10:00

2005-05-02T22:18:42Z

hello... today skool was ok thismorning was a little scary casue sloan drove lol... then after skool driving instructor picked me up from skool we drove down to motor vehicle and got my eyes checked and then i drove home from there but she took me to the scariest places ever i dont want to drive ... it was horrible .. she said i was doing very good but i was still afraid as nething ... and like i wasnt in the car like five minutes when she had me turning into traffic and i turned into the otherside of the road cause i looked down at my feet .... it was sooo scary then the woman in the other car gave me the finger and started yelling at me ....i wanted to like cry but after that i was ok ... afraid but did well.. and she was on her fuckign fone the whole time and not telling me where to go ... i have it again on wednesday and then i get my permit on thursday YAYYY...dance tonite fun ishh i get to see lyss yessss... ok im gunnu go shower or somehting i need somethign to keep me busy lol

shell fuck u jsut for the taste

2005-05-01T23:10:45Z

hello and welcome lol.. so lets see friday went to places for my sweet 16...went out wit mema and mommy... hung out wit lu and didnt feel good ... saturday went shopping wit mema at monmouth ot alllooot of new stuff and i had fun hehe... i got a shirt that says sotally tober haha... i like it ... umm todayy didnt do much we went to hoe depot and got a bbq and some other stuff nothing exctiting... now im currently waiting for the love of my life to come over ...her name is sloan lol...tommrow casue we are just soo cool we are wearing matching shirts and she is driving me to skool and then after skool i have my frisat driving lesson YESSSS .... so jsut be carefull if ur gunnu be on the roads lol <3by the way i love u

hello

2005-04-29T03:00:36Z

hey so yeasterday was fucking awsome lol.... yea during the day was fun no details sry lol... then around 3 me and lyss decided to go for a walk lol .. and she told me to put her in this and say hi so hey hennigan lol... i made a ringer on her fone for when i call its awsome lol... we hung out then i went home around 5ish ... lu came over we hung out then ,mommy came home wit lexi so we watched cartoons wit her and then watched finding nemo although lexi wasnt paying attention it was jsut me an lu lmao ...then me and lu watched grind then hung out wit lucas .. lu tried to skateboard hes getting good actually.... i went home then at liek 9 lu came over again random i kno .. lol we watched friday the 13th .....made fun of most of it and then he made fun of mee cause i was scared....me him and lyss were suposed to hang out like late last nite but it didnt happen we all fell asleep lol... today woke up went downstairs and umm lexi was there and i was like mom wut the fuck then got yelled at for saying fuck lol but neway haha...shes like o yea were watching her today grrrrrrr....so wewent to driving school to hand in paper work and my first appointment is monay.... umm the bank pet food store and then the mall... then went home and mommy let me drive in the development but i dotn have my pirmet yet so i wasnt aloud t drive far but ya w.e....this is gunnu be long just a warning lol...then slaon calls me and is like do u want to see something scary and she drove to my house .. we made a whole plan ... from now on shes driving us to school wit grammy of course casue we cant drive alone yet lol... im going to work at rec wit her this summer and im gunnu tell them i have to be in laffayet casue shes my ride....and then next year we are gunnu drive to school me her and lu... umm we are also going to six flags next friday lol ... yea so then as we stand in my drive way and i freeze my ass off we decide to go bowling .. so we go there and there are no lanes till 9:30 so were klike umm ok lets go back to my house so we hung out made classes and decided we are making a burn book... she left and now im here i think im gunnu do thing s for my sweet 16 casue im bored... umm tommrow going to look at rooms for my sweet 16 then going shopping at mommouth mall .... idk about tommrow nite yet <3

broknhrtdloser6 @ 2005-04-27T11:54:00

2005-04-27T16:01:50Z

hello... yesterday was fun .... e and court did nothing lol... then i decided to curl her hair how she sshould wear it for her sweet 16... oo yea were going to looma t th eplace for mine on friday ....a little delayed but a lot of people who have winter bdays wait till the summer .... then last nite went out ...came home aaround 11 .... pl;ans wit henigan got fucked casue someone doesnt kno how to answer his fone lol so were gunnu try for tonite although not loving the idea of walking in the rain.. wut ever its worth it lol... today not doing much ... i fell bad i told my mom i wouldnt watch lexi and now angela might call out of work and mommy might have to work a double ... i feel bad now .. but still its not my fucking responsibility to watch her daughter find a baby sitter if my mom had noone to watch me when i was little and she had to go to work she brought me with her and i sat there and occupied myself till she was done so lexi can do the same ... o well not getting guilted into it not my problem.. well im gouingto go get dressed and clean my room and stuff <3

im at courts hosue

2005-04-26T08:07:56Z

so yea its 4:04 am.....and im at courts rite now on samis lap top lol...courts like half asleep and im like wide awake so yea...today went to dance for ever ad then came here and im staying ehre tommrow till soetime adn then finally going home lol ... its weird casue she slept over my hosue last night so yea ookk im gunnu go court is waking up lol ... <3

spilling out my heart never felt so good

2005-04-24T02:02:00Z

hey so last nite went out wit sloan to the mall had so much fun i needed that hadnt hung out in a while ...we were talking about old times and friends and everything...but then i started thinking about bri and michelle and got all upset cause it was like omg we were so close and i fucked that up... ahh not going into it cause it sux a lot.... so then we met up wit anthony and umm yea ... i think i like him again idk it just felt good to have his arms around me and then we were joking around and he was kissing my neck and i just felt like ahh idk ...u kno that feeling when u dont want something to end even tho u like cant breathe and u have butterflies like whoa... yea that was it haha.... i felt so bad after tho cause i called court to tell her and she was like i still like him and i was like oo shit cuase i honestly thought she didnt and it suxx casue i kno i cant like him cause i wont do that to her u kno .. ahh it just sux cause its like i really feel comfortable wit him and everything and like then he kissed me and it jsut felt right even tho it wasnt like all making outness it was jsut a cute little kiss that just ahh idk..... im so done right now ... had dance today it was fun then went out wit mema .. tommrow getting a pedicure adn shopping in the mall.. monday dance then maybe courts house if she doesnyt hate me </3 hopless romantic